Time

In one of Elder Sant's last emails home he wrote, "What is this thing called time..." Time goes so slowly while we're starring at the clock, but when we are busy enjoying life or have a few too many things on our schedule, the hours seem to fly by like seconds. Tomorrow, Mackenzie will have been out 6 weeks. Tomorrow is also the day he was originally called to leave. These past 6 weeks, I've grown so much and have really started to understand my role as a daughter of God. I know Mackenzie had the opportunity to leave early for a reason. He's grown tremendously during this time and I can't imagine if he had to have waited until tomorrow to leave. Just to put things into perspective, two years ago I was starting my senior year of high school. So much has changed since then but it also feels like that was just yesterday. To everyone else, two years might be a long time. Although we get new opportunities to grown and learn everyday, we might do a lot of changing within the course of two years. But in an eternal perspective, two years is a blink of an eye. I've read a lot of blogs, videos, etc, of missionary girlfriends struggling or having a really hard time being sad and missing their missionaries. Of course I miss Mackenzie, but I don't miss him in a sad, sloppy, depressed way. This does not have to be a sad time. This two years will truly be the best two years for Mackenzie. So why not make this the best two years for ourselves? When we fill our time doing wholesome activities like working, going to school, studying the scriptures, fulfilling our callings, practicing our talents, these are the things that will make the time fly. For me, I've been really working on becoming closer to Heavenly Father and learning more about the gospel. Although I've been a member my whole life and I've gone to all 4 years of seminary, I feel like I still have so much left to learn. and I definitely want to be on the same spiritual level as Mackenzie when he comes home, So I have plenty to keep me busy! Time will pass us by if we let it. We need to make the most out of what time we have. Weather that is spent with loved ones, with ourselves or being productive. My parents recently got this new beautiful grandfather clock and it chimes every 15 minutes. Sometimes I can't believe it's been 15 minutes since the last chime. I know it's made me realize how fast time goes and how before we know it, Mackenzie will be home. So it's important to fill my time with things that will make me grow as a person as well, not just sitting on the couch, crying, waiting for two years to pass by. Most important thing is to do what makes us happy, keep smiling and to have the best two years of your life. :)

This is a picture of me and Mackenzie exactly two years ago. At school, at the start of senior year, enjoying lunch in our usual spot in high school. Two years can pass by so quickly and if my love hasn't changed for Mackenzie in the past almost 3 years, another 2 will only make me love him that much more. <333